Over the past few weeks I've been on this journey of discovering more and more of who I am. It's funny how I thought I knew when actually I really just scratched the surface. I've heard so many times "just be, just be, just be who you are don't worry about doing right now" I really didn't get that. Until now. (I love how patient our Papa is with us--He knows how many times it will take for us to step into something)
Being here in Indiana--along with some many other things is really knowing about my value and worth--the core of who I am. Not just a gift, calling, destiny--the essence of what makes Tonya unique and different. And learning how to love, enjoy, and celebrate all the aspects of me that God absolutely adores and love. I know that I am a powerful person, anointed, and called to "do" great things for God---and also the core of my being is that I am His daughter of value and of worth because I am His--I look just like Him. It's truly believing the best---that people truly mean what they say when they say they love me, they like me, and also knowing that some people won't and that's ok---it doesn't change the truth of who I am. I live in the place of His heart for me, His acceptance and approval of me. Abiding in that place in Him. Removing the lenses of rejection; of lies of 'not being enough'; or 'being too much';' I don't fit in'---(with mindsets like that---I can come into every scenario, situation, or relationship and they wouldn't have a chance)
I thought--God is this is some deep stuff that goes back a way---I could try to find the root of all this but that is too much work----so I simply just see Him take me into His arms and say "Let me love you more in those areas and just receive--nothing else is required."
Why do I share all this: I am not quite sure however, since I've been here I thinking I haven't really been sharing too much of myself besides my gifts I wanted to share my heart. Be open and willing and invite people into knowing 'ME'....just me who have insecurities; working out some stuff; who do not have it all figured out and learning how to be loved. Not just by the Father however, by others as well.
Thank you for Loving me,
Tonya
